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One less thing to worry about

Bypass Surgery (CAD), General Health, My MCL, My Well Being 1 Response »

May 112013

Not that it did much to put a stop to the way I’ve been feeling the past several days [or weeks], but I received the results of my latest blood test, and all was good. Well at least it was all the same as it has been.

Sure my lymphocyte count was still high, but no higher or lower than it’s been for the past 3+ years, as was my hemoglobin, platelets and just about everything else.

Even my creatinine phosphokinase (CPK) was fine. That was a test ordered by my primary care physician (PCP) because of some unusual bone and neck pains I was experiencing as of late, which I was thinking may be caused by the Lipitor I’m currently taking for cholesterol.

So now all I have left to worry about are the intermittent pains I’m continuing to experience in my chest. My PCP doesn’t think it’s angina, suggesting it could be the result of nerve damage from the CABG surgery, but has authorized another treadmill test, to hopefully rule out any problems.

I always thought I should have had another treadmill test sooner than later, so this seems like as good a time as any! We’ll see if that does anything to improve my mood. Assuming the results are all good that is!

Life changing experiences

Bypass Surgery (CAD), General Health, Life, My MCL, My Well Being 4 Responses »

May 012013

I’m sure lots of people will say they’ve had life changing experiences. I even thought I had one back on March 26, 2002, when I received the results of the blood test which eventually led to my diagnosis of MCL. (It’s scary how easily some people can be fooled, especially when it’s yourself.)

While that certainly changed my life, for the better I would add, it can in no way compare to the truly life changing experience of having heart surgery.

I am definitely not the same person I was 6 months ago, before my surgery, not physically or emotionally. Sure, I’m able to do most of the things I enjoy, but not with the same zeal or confidence I once had. From the moment I awake in the morning, to the point I’m finally able to drag myself out of bed, so goes the rest of my day. Every ache and pain, whether real or nuanced, causes me pause. Should I simply ignore it, should I call the doctor, or should I just simply give up?

So far I’ve [mostly] chosen the first, but more and more the latter seems like the better choice, and it’s all I can do not to succumb. (My previous post is a good indication of that.)

I’m just beginning to wonder if I will ever get back to at least some semblance of where I was before?

I just don’t have it in me anymore

Life 2 Responses »

Apr 162013

It’s been nearly 2 weeks since my last post. I can’t remember having gone that long before without posting at least something. Even after declaring, almost 2 years ago to the day, I wasn’t going to post much anymore.

The truth is, I simply can’t find the motivation to write about much anymore. I couldn’t even get motivated about yesterdays bombings in Boston, and I could have found plenty to comment about, had I the desire.

Maybe it’s the weather, or aybe I’ve reached that, so called, 5th stage of grief, realizing there’s nothing I can do about the inevitable. So why bother?

I think it goes something [exactly] like this

Que Sera Sera,
What ever will be will be,
The future’s not ours to see,
Que Sera Sera
What will be, will be

Who knows if I’ll post again? I probably will. (I have to keep my advertisers happy after all ). I just don’t know when.

Birthdays! What are they good for?

Life, My MCL 2 Responses »

Apr 032013

It’s been over 11 years since my diagnosis of MCL. It’s been so long, much like my birthday, I chose not to even think about it.

The only thing birthdays are good for is knowing how soon you’ll be eligible for Medicare (less than 2 months for me now), and what new discounts I’m eligible for from local, regional or national retailers.

Birthdays are nothing but a reminder of why that new pain you woke up with, or acquired during the day, for no apparent reason, is now making you miserable.

Worst of all, birthdays are a reminder things aren’t going to get any better. They’re a reminder of why you can’t do what you were once able to do. The mind is willing (at least in my case), but the body just doesn’t want to respond.

We are of course all different, and many can withstand the inevitable longer than others. Heck, I even know a few, which makes this even more disheartening.

Oh well, such is life! I could go on complaining more, but what would be the point?

The best thing to do now is to simply pass on, to those who can still benefit, two little bits of wisdom I’ve acquired over the past many years, and that is don’t ever get old, but also realizing the inevitability of life, never forget

the future is just a concept we use to avoid living today

They’re back!

Off Topic 6 Responses »

Mar 222013

And just when I thought I had solved my problem with spam comments.

After eliminating commenting on all the “information of note” posts I had in my sidebar, I was spam free for over 3 weeks.

But as in politics, the honeymoon didn’t last long. The spammers have managed to relocated me, and are now commenting on all my posts. It hasn’t reached the amount I was receiving when I first posted (about 30/day), but the numbers are increasing. I have no doubt the numbers will reach that same amount soon.

Fortunately WordPress has a great spam filtering program to weed out the spam, so my faithful followers (all 3 of you), don’t have to be bothered by them, but the question still remains. WHY?

Why do they do it? It makes no sense to me, but neither does so much else that is occurring in the world today. So why I am I so surprised.

BIG SIGH!

Where do you fit in?

Life, Off Topic, Politics 4 Responses »

Mar 182013

Here’s a headline I thought interesting.

U.S. millionaire count reaches 9 million

Now whether you think the number of millionaires in the US (2.9% of the population) is relevant or not, you should at least be concerned by the fact nearly 90% of the population has a net worth of less than $100,000. (I wonder how many of those households have a net worth of $0?)

I find that number very disturbing, as well as puzzling, considering the path many of our political leaders are trying to lead us down, and the number of Americans who support them.

But what might be the most troubling is who is this Spectrem Group, why is it they know how much money I have, and what else do they know about me?

Hmmm!

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